I'm crying now....

Its really hard to find love for a country when very little seems to be going right at the moment. I know I am being really pathetic and self-absorbed. But i just learned that this little car accident will cost me upwards of $4000 US dollars. That doesn't include the amount I will have to pay if the "victim" needs therapy. It is very possible that I will be spending my entire year, sitting in my 5 room apartment, because I have no money left for travel. And really, who wants to drive a car anymore...if this is how much it will cost for a broken taillight and a crushed headlight?? I mean what if it was something more severe...I'd never be able to leave my apartment again.

Unfortunatly since I am so isolated (i'm in a beautiful town surrounded by mountains and ocean, but no train station...and really a joke of a bus line.) I have no choice but to have a car.

I came here for adventure and the chance to travel and see new things....and although i'm in the midst of an adventure of sorts...it isn't quite what I had in mind. 10.5 more months and I'm out of here...thinking of moving to Philly. Not sure why. Hopefully it will be better than these past couple of days here in Japan.